Picking up and Heading Back

So I realize break once again kinda flew by and I'm not ready to leave. I have a lot of unfinished business to deal with at school that I am not looking forward to, nor do I really want to. Yet I can't stop the clock and so the packing begins. Nothing makes me feel more like a girl then packing. I always try to cut down on what I bring, but its always a lot. I know I am definitely bringing more back to school then I brought home. I can't really help it. I mean I got some things that are important like winter boots, an electric blanket....I mean I can't leave home without my new waffle maker! LOL Ok yea the waffle maker isn't needed but its sooooooooo kewl! My backpack is even heavy with my new books for the term. I look around at the things I pack and its hard to cut corners...I mean the whisky has to come with! :P
Regardless I have to finish packing and then pack the car for my 3 hour road trip to the great college in the middle of no where. Can't really complain I mean I get to blast my ipod and jam out driving for three hours, that's my meditation. As much as I love hanging out with people I guess I find real solace in being alone sometimes. Just me and the road, I can't screw anything up and I am too busy singing to think deeply lol. Its kinda funny thinking about it now cuz it is kinda like my life. I go from one group of people to another with a bunch of lonely moments in between. Those moments seem to last forever sometimes and I try to avoid them, but I feel like that's just where I am meant to be. I have to stop basically "begging" people to hang out because I want to have fun and let it go. If people really want to be there, really want to hang out then they will just have to find me. No telling if I can actually stick to this, but hey it sounds good...lol. So here's to packing and my last two days!

Figuring Things Out...Checking In

I am at odds...

Recap, I have been back on campus a minute and been having sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun till sadly classes started...but hey that is why I am here. Regardless I realized this week that my life from now on will be dull and boring. :(
Ok that's a lie, when is my life truly boring...I will never let this come to pass!!! Classes have me freaked out a bit just because of the amount of work required, but like I said this is what I am here for and I will get it done!...hopefully ;)
I am observing/ working at a school in town for 3 hours straight. This teacher is gonna use me to her full advantage, which I have no problem with considering this is what I want to do for a living. I am back interning at the lovely preschool with a whole new class that I already adore! They are so sweet and oddly quiet in comparison to the class last year.
My Bday is this week! Turning 21 and I just can't wait!!! So I apologize in advance for all the crazy things that might happen, cuz I know me and I know they will...bahahahaha
In other news: I guess I am trying to work on me, as always. Been working out more and I am feeling good about myself. I am by far more social this year and tryin to meet new people and get involved in other things. My friends are growing in numbers and this makes me sooooooooooo happy, not like I didn't have friends before but the more diverse my friends are the better I feel and the more I get pushed into attending things/joining things. Sometimes I need a little push to get out...lol
I am using this house to my advantage and have cooked quite a bit already and I bought more pasta today so I know there will be cooking in my future...maybe in real close future cuz I am getting hungry.

So as you may have noticed this entry is titled "Figuring Things Out...Checking In"....well I did the checking in part now to explain the 1st part. I am trying to figure out a lot this term/ year. I don't know how long it is gonna take, but I guess I will find out. I have to figure some stuff out with certain people here and at home. I am personally at odds with a friend at home and well...we will see how this goes. As for people here, I know one friend for sure I need to talk to, but considering where I am I have no idea if I can do it. I just get so mad and sad and I try really hard not to let my emotions hit me like that, but it just happens. Its really hard to be the good friend and to feel hurt at the same time...beyond that idk. I will figure all the things out, I always do. Here's Hoping!

Been A Long Time...I'm Back!!!

So a lot has happened to me over the last few months. I have dealt with a lot of problems that I have basically been ignoring for some time now and I feel so much better about it. I also am newly single and trying to figure that all out (with that said know that me and my ex are best of friends). I am trying to build on me and make me better. I know what I need and who I need in my life and with that knowledge I can only move forward. I am currently trying to work harder in school and spend some free time at the gym. I love how working out makes me feel, regardless of what people may think of me I feel good when I work out and I feel better about myself so there :P  lol. I'm nervous about my classes this term seeing how they are harder then stuff I have taken before and I am taking classes that are more seriously apart of my major and my minors. I just get that overwhelming feeling that I need to do well in all my classes so as to keep my head above water as I get more invovled in my studies. This is especially true for my Education class this term, I want to teach and I know I can do it, but something about having to teach my class and having to be recorded makes it that much more intense and nerve recking. In brighter news I will hopefully have a job at a summer camp this summer getting more experience with children and learning new things to do with them. I am super excited for the weather to get warmer and sun to shine as much as possible. Here's hoping for a great new term!

Back in Action

Back to school and back to work. I have been at school for two days and I already have so much to do. I have been to all my classes and even started back working. My schedule is really crazy and I am pretty much gonna be filled with work considering I am taking reading and writing intensive classes. I like them all though which helps, but it doesn't take the pressure off. Working early mornings is not bad...just the getting up part. I made it through with hot chocolate in hand. I am hopefully gonna make it through my classes and get all the work done...even if it kills me. I actually am happy to report that I will have an internship soon at the preschool in town....I am sooooooooo excited. Another reason to wake up at 8am YAY!!! LOL I am excited though...I will just be more excited when the weekend comes so I can waste the day reading my school books and enjoying a comfy bed. So until then I have things to do, homework to finish, books to read, and exercises to do...oh how the time flies when you are having fun. Well here's hoping I make it to the weekend!