Showing posts with label confusing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label confusing. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

What is Romance?

To each person this is a different answer. Some people expect romance to be over the top, to some little things matter, and others don't believe it exists. Any girl raised among the Disney Princess movies would probably believe in romance and the wonder of its beauty (I know I do lol). Regardless though romance can be a wonderful and confusing thing.

Romance
noun
1. a novel or other prose narrative depicting heroic or marvelous deeds, pageantry, romantic exploits, etc., usually in a historical or imaginary setting.
2. the colorful world, life, or conditions depicted in such tales.
3. a medieval narrative, originally one in verse and in some Romance dialect, treating of heroic, fantastic, or supernatural events, often in the form of allegory.
4. a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.
5. a romantic spirit, sentiment, emotion, or desire.
 
Its funny how even the definition says it's "made-up". I guess logically it doesn't make sense and to an academic it is just a silly piece of fiction...but what if that romantic spirit is more then that. It very well could be irrational yet it still exists because of a feeling. Romance and love go hand in hand, neither are really definable, though we all try and make our own definitions. They are apart of human nature and our need to connect to people.
 
Romance to me is simple and pure, its not the crazy big things. A boy can, and has, swept me off my feet by talking to me and telling me something personal. Opening up to me is huge as well as being a gentleman. Its not about gifts, dates, or anything huge...its the small kiss on the neck or forehead that shows that you care, the reminder that you have my back, the moments where he holds my hand or hugs me while he looks into my eyes. I can't speak for everyone, but to me that's romance, that's how I get caught up. It's such a funny thing, but so beautiful because in those moments I can soar beyond cloud nine and I never want to come down.
For logic's sake I am gonna try to keep my feet on the ground for a while...Here's Hoping!!!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Today in Science: Heart is a Confusing Thing

You ever fall for someone and it leaves you in a strange place...talk to me about it.

Problem: You have no idea how weird my situation is...not terrible but confusing. I get caught in between the good and bad with this person and every time I just want to let him go I find it almost impossible, something pulls me back to him. It's stupid and crazy, but I get caught up in the moments we have together. I am better then this and I give advice on this type of stuff...but for some reason I am just irrational. Those big brown eyes catch me and I buy what he is selling...which ain't much considering he seems to be avoiding dating me, and he caught up at the moment. I know I'm stupid...but considering my past I think it make sense...lol.

Solution: I guess the best way to handle this is to let him go, just walk away. IDK if I can do that, but it does sound good right?

Truth: I guess I'm too stubborn for my own good. I'm afraid of giving up and finding myself in a "what if situation"...I hate those situations. I want to live life without regrets if I can help it. Yet, I guess one of my close friends put it best "make sure you are your 1st priority!" That's a weird concept for me, I figure when I look back at my life so far I never really fought for myself as much as I should've...I wanted to make other people happy. I wanted to be mommy and fix other people's problems, conform to their needs and wants. It wasn't till college that I started figuring out what I wanted, who I wanted to be. I fought for people all my life, fought for recognition and even in moments like this I am still fighting. I am fighting for this boy to pay attention to what is right in front of him, me....why should I keep fighting? YouTube: Never Ever

New Observation: What am I really doing here? Waiting for a boy for 3 years to notice me, to date me...that's a laugh I guess cuz after 3 years I think anyone reasonable enough whould've seen it as a lost cause...not me, cuz as we discovered earlier I am not reasonable...lol. Regardless, I deserve better then this, I know I have a great heart and a great personality to back it up. I am not perfect, but I know that I got a lot to like about me, yet he don't see it. It's a shame really, but what can I do?...Nothing. I think the hardest thought for me is that if I let go there won't be anyone else (my deepest fear). It sucks being THAT girl, I want more then that, but I don't want to be alone...confusion :/