Feeling Good

Nina Simone- Feeling Good
Muse- Feeling Good
Jennifer Hudson- Feeling Good
Michael Buble- Feeling Good

Above are links to the same song done by 4 different people. I love this song and each artist brings something different to it. The 1st one is more raw and blues like. The second one has a rock edge to it. The third one is soul and R&B at its best. The last one is the one I first heard and I love his sound no matter what he sings, but his take on the song is more dramatic as a crooner would be.

All these different takes on the song i love and kinda admire. Someone had the guts to hear this song and say I want to put my twist onto it. That takes a lot of confidence to take something on that is already good and change it. I guess the whole reason of the post today is to share this song and give a version to each person depending on what they like. Its all about feeling good, even if things don't work out you just got to remember
"It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good"

Here's Hoping your Feeling Good!!!

P.S. Funny Bonus Video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DjCe1quR_G8

Random Chatter

So....this coming Monday is my last day of work. I am kinda sad and happy at the same time. I know its been rough because this was a new thing for me and I had no clue what I was doing, but I know I learned a lot. I learned about myself and how to handle certain situations, plus I got to meet a bunch of amazing kids. So now I am more aware which is good and I have a month to devote to doing what I want till I head back to school.

 I got one thing accomplished with putting together this bookshelf and putting away all my books, who knew a bookshelf could make me so happy. My room looks bigger and it feels nicer. Yet, it's still cluttered with college stuff and things I don't need. My goal is to get it some what cleaned up before I leave. So there is one project for the next month.

In other news I am kinda sad that Borders is going out of business. I know they are expensive, but my library doesn't have much of a selection and Borders was a place where I could find anything I was looking for. I went to the one in Orland yesterday and just walked around, found gifts for my dad and sister which was good. My hope is that I can go back and scoop up clearance books for my own reading. I have sooooooooo many books and so many that I haven't read yet. I just haven't had time and when school starts I can't really read for fun at all. So maybe I will try and get one book finished before I head back. I feel overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time. I feel bored, but yet there is plenty to do. I guess I am just weird like that. Here's Hoping for Clarity!

P.S. Since I am so enchanted with my own bookshelf I decided to post a picture of the library from Beauty and the Beast...o childhood dreams...lol

Cleaning House

So I am finally cleaning my room today. Mind you that it isn't that dirty, just cluttered with all the college boxes I have refused to unpack. Most of it is going back to school with me in a month so I just don't see the point. But yesterday I got a new, taller bookshelf for my room and since I have no patience I have begun cleaning out the space so I can put up my new bookshelf. With this new handy bookshelf my dreams of becoming the Disney Princess Belle is finally coming true (she was the one who had the whole library and was a book worm in case you weren't aware). Nonetheless I am happy to have more storage for all my books and things. I just need to clean up whats left in my room and maybe one day I will get the desk I dream of...one day. Any who I realize how much I just don't want to clean my room, I feel like I make little to know progress when I try. I admit I have way too much stuff. I need to get rid of a lot of it and I am trying. Currently I am working on donating things so that way I don't feel bad about getting rid of them. My closet is one thing that I know I need to go through, but its so hard to get rid of things, idk maybe I am weird but I just don't know when I might need something. I feel like its harder now because I am starting to get more nice clothes I can wear to school for observation and eventually student teaching. My closet is just overwhelmed. I really need to just purge my room of all the things I don't use so I can just have the basics. Eventually my room will be where I want it, but with the constant moving in and out of my room its hard to keep up. I know once I get it where I want it, it will be time to leave. Just thinking about it is exhausting. Time for a nap...lol, I wish.

I do have a question though, why is it so hard to get rid of things. I find that I put so much into objects that is is so hard to part with them. Take for example stuffed animals, while some girls have two or three I have a bunch sitting on a futon in my room. I can't really part with them because they all have names and have a story, but its not like I play with them. They just sit in my room collecting dust and only a chosen two sit in my bed. How do you get rid of things like that, things you develop close attachments to but no longer enjoy as you once did? I think the saddest one I have isn't even a stuffed animal, its a hoodie. A boys hoodie that sits on a high shelf in my closet folded that I haven't worn since high school. It has good memories tied to it and I personally can't find the strength to throw it away or donate it and he won't take it back. I don't wear it because I feel a disconnect since I am no longer his girlfriend and he moved on, but for some reason every time I come across it I can't get rid of it.........................idk why........maybe its the memories, maybe its the pain of letting go, maybe its the fear that you won't remember...

P.S. I loved the book above when I was a kids, mainly because it reminded me of my room...lol

Need You Now

Ok so I am listening to this song by Lady Antebellum. I am sure you have probably heard it even if you didn't realize it. Here's a link just in case though: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eM213aMKTHg

Any who I guess my point is that I completely relate to this song.
"Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now"

I guess the phone calls are the guys in my life I think I need or I cling to and call drunk or sober. I make the mistake when I am alone to cling to these boys instead of trying to busy my mind in other ways. When I'm bored I spend too much time thinking or if I'm alone I do the same thing. I hate the loneliness and the quiet day after day, so I end up calling boys who don't much care either way what happens to me. A part of me wishes these guys felt the same way I feel about them and really did care enough to be there for me as a friend at least, but I guess I ask too much. Nonetheless, I call the guys I try to avoid talking to all day and it normally goes down hill from there. Regardless of the time I loose control and try to have polite conversation with people who don't need me as much as I feel like I need them. I know I am better then that and at school I am fine, but being home with none of my college friends near its hard. I end up talking to old friends and people who are no good for me, but what is a social girl to do? I guess I would rather deal with the crap they throw at me then be alone, locked up in my room like a modern day Rapunzel. IDK